One of the things that really through me when I first started classes
was violin performance class. I don’t really like performing, at all. So
when it was announced that Violin Lab was actually performance class, I
eminently tried to figure out how I could get out of it, until I heard
Dr. Thomason’s explanation of why we need that class. It turns out that
performing in front of other people is something you need to practice.
You never really stop being nerves; you just learn how to deal with it
better. Practicing performing can not only help you deal with nerves but
can also help you learn what you still need to work on, in your music.
One of the reasons that I hate performing so much is that when you are
up in front of other people is that I will mess up in random places that
I thought I knew.
Being able to make those mistakes without an actual audience is
invaluable. It provides just enough pressure so you can see your weak
spots and learn to control your nerves but in a way that doesn’t
destroy your confidence. It is one of the reason sports teams do
scrimmages. In a scrimmage you learn to work together, you get to learn
your strengths and weaknesses, and you can make mistakes without
negatively effecting the team. I am really good at defense I learned
that when I was in basketball, but on the flip side of that I really
just cannot score. No matter how many baskets I make in practice in
scrimmages and games I choke. I don't know why but I do. I learned this
by making dozens of mistakes. I would have loved to learn this when i
wasn't in a game that mattered.
when I learn to by making mistakes I remember better. The only
reason i remember that 7x8=56 is because i got it wrong a lot. Making
mistakes is what school is for, so we don't make mistakes when you get a
job. The point of school is to make mistakes, so don't get obsessed
with that bad grade on a paper it just means you are still learning. If
you're not learning why are you in college?